Do you ever feel like you are on autopilot? As if the life you planned is a far-off vision that seems unreachable at the moment? So you turn on autopilot and keep chugging along with the dream of one day feeling alive again. That is where I am at in my journey. Where did I take this turn? I can think of a few ideas. But I feel as if most of my ideas are placing blame on a person, or situation. That would be me not holding myself accountable for my own choices. I know it is my own doing but I feel as if I am too deep in the choices I have made I just have to hurry up and wait… I just want to feel like I am in the driver’s seat again; I have lost that feeling somewhere along the line. Did I lose it in my relationship? Or maybe it was me adding a baby in the mix of having a teenager or a preteen? It could be the non-stop college classes I am determined to continue until I have a degree.  I know I am not alone when I say I feel as if I am living my life for everyone but myself in my daily life.
Yes, the college classes are ultimately for me, and the passion I have burning inside. But my day-to-day, it’s all tasks to help and build up the people around me. Heck, I barely get a shower every other day, let alone time for myself to do the things that make me happy. So here I am, starting a blog. I guess I am on the road to creating something of my own, hoping to build a connection with like-minded souls. This is all new to me, so bare with me while I gain my footing in this new world, the best is yet to come!